Abyss...

It was so dark... The air around me was stale and still. I could not see a thing... neither could I feel anything... I fell in so deep and hard. The fall to the bottom of the abyss took somewhat like eternity. When I was falling, I tried hard and many times to grab hold of protruding edges on the walls of the abyss... The razor sharp edges cut deep... real deep.... I could never have a firm hold. The scratch marks and blood trail painted the walls like a facade. Now I have reached the cold and dark bottom. Not a single beam of light could reach the bottom. But I did. I could no longer see the facade I painted with my bare hands and the life from within me, the only reminder being the scars and pain that remained. Numb was the only feeling I could describe hitting the bottom. Numb to my hands, my arms, my legs, my body... but not my heart where the pain resides... It was excruciating but it was the only feeling I have left within me. It was the only way I knew I was still alive.

Fed by darkness, I grew to resent everything outside of my abyss. This darkness belong solely to me. This darkness gave me strength. The strength to be alone... As I was getting used to my resolve in the abyss, I heard a calling... a calling from above me. Though soft, I could sense it... Knowing not what it was, I stood up. Putting one hand on the edges protruding from the wall, I pulled and reached for the next edge. Slowly, I climbed one step at a time. As blood flow and old scars reopen, I continued on...

The air was getting fresher with a scent of life. I could feel a faint glow over me from the moon shine. I could almost reach the opening of the abyss. Just one last reach... one last reach... I could never make that last move. I could only have a whiff of what life above was to be... The darkness from beneath grew and reached out to me... pulling me back...

I knew where I belong now... I knew no matter how hard I try and persevere, I belong here... in the abyss... The dark was my solace... The pain, My life...

Maybe one day, a rope long enough enough to reach the heavens will be thrown down this abyss... My abyss...